Placidly, one after another,
they wait, a procession,
a steady flow succumbing
to a vital flow of a questionable future,
their wan smiles at the cheerfulness
of those who attend to them a reminder
that hope, however subtle,
still lives, their lives in the balance.
This morning, I completed the second of two sessions of chemotherapy – not of the sort you might expect. After numerous tests and procedures, my doctors have decided that iron infusion is the answer to the severe iron deficiency anemia I have been experiencing since late last summer. A bag of “rusty water” (my nurse referred to it as “chocolate water”) was blended with a bag of saline solution as it was pumped into my arm. Lab tests at three, nine, and twelve months will determine if/when I will need further treatment. Hopefully that’s years away.
The infusion took place at Missouri Cancer Associates. During my short time there I felt out of place as I sat beside patients with far more pressing needs than mine.
Shared with Open Link #288: March Live edition at dVerse ~ Poets Pub
Take care Ken.
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Thank you, Di.
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🙂
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Stay strong!!
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Thanks, Pat. 🙂
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Ken, the poem is a portrait of a scene many face – glad your condition was less dire than most in the witnessed procession. Fascinating to think of infusing with iron … good luck!
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Yes. Here’s hoping this is the answer. Thanks, Jazz.
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Sounds like a positive step. I went with my mom a couple times when she had some low strength infusions. It was… disturbing, seeing the others who were suffering more. Your photo makes me think of coffee enemas I heard about from Tijuana cancer hospitals.
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Fingers crossed. Thank you, Daniel.
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More power to you, Ken. It’s not easy for certain. I am glad your condition was less dire. 💝
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Thank you, Sanaa. It was a sobering experience to see so many patients in need, and a reminder of how much worse things could be.
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I thought it was your new coffee ritual!
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You, too can have your very own coffee infuser! Kickstarter coming soon!
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Sign me up!
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😀
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When I’ve had checkups at the oncologist’s office, I’ve felt fortunate that I wasn’t one of the sicker patients there. Good luck! I hope that treatment is all you need.
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Thank you, Merril. I noticed no difference after the first infusion, but the hematologist said it could be a couple of weeks overall before I feel less winded.
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I hope it doesn’t take too long.
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Thanks, Merril.
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You’re welcome.
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I really felt it when you read about all the other patients.. I am thankful for every day I don’t have to go there for whatever reason…
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Thank you, Björn. It was an interesting moment of perspective.
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Glad your anemia was given a strong response by the doctors. Why you had to have the treatment at the oncologists isn’t understood, but maybe that’s what you were sent (not by doctors) to observe for this moment in your life. The thought of a procession lined up for cancer treatments is haunting.
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Thank you. The referral to the hematologist (at the cancer center) was from my gastroenterologist. Being there definitely gave me a better perspective of my own (relatively) minor ailments.
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You’re welcome, Ken. Hoping this does the trick for you.
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So sorry to hear of this but glad you are receiving treatment 👍🏻💕
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Thank you.
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You’re welcome, stay safe
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Ken, Sorry to hear you are unwell. I wish you every success with the treatment. Take it gently. Chris
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Thank you for that, Chris. I have more reason to be positive than others.
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If we lived closer, Ken, I’d volunteer to chauffeur you to and from any appointments, just so I could (legitimately) hang out in hospital waiting rooms. Best wishes and positive vibes for any health issues you may continue to face. Peace, Brother.
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Thanks, Ron. I’ll take those vibes.
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Such a touching write. Sitting among chemo patients would certainly move one to pondering fate and purpose!
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Thank you, Beverly. That it did.
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It’s truly interesting the scenarios you see in those rooms. When I was going for radiation treatments, there was this one Trumper who was always going on and on about him. It was hard to listen to and keep quiet. Well done Ken- you really captured the essence.
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Thank you, Linda.
One way to look at the Trumper is that at least they weren’t letting their illness derail them from other concerns in life.
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You’re welcome. That’s very true.
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I hope you feel better soon.
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Thank you, Claudia.
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Wishing you positive energy to get you through whatever comes your way. Peace, health and strength
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Thank you. 🙂
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Wow! Sorry to hear this Ken. Hope the therapy does its job and helps bring health and healing to you.
Dwight
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Thanks, Dwight. Here’s hoping.
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Wishing you a speedy recovery Ken.
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🙂 Thank you, Sadje.
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You’re welcome
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You’ve really captured that delicate balance between life and death here, Ken. My sister had chemo but I never went with her to sessions as we lived far apart. I think it is a really tough thing to go through. I hope you recover soon after your transfusion!
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🙂 Thank you, Ingrid.
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I’m fascinated by this treatment, Ken, which I had never heard of, and I hope it does the trick for you. I too have found myself alongside patients with far more pressing needs, as well as experiencing my late father’s dialysis on several occasions, and it does leave an imprint on you. I applaud the way you have transferred that imprint to a powerful poem, especially the juxtaposition of ‘wan smiles’ and ‘cheerfulness’, ‘a reminder that hope, however subtle, still lives, their lives in the balance’.
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Thank you, Kim. I’m sure the patients recognize the efforts of the nurses to make the experience as tolerable as possible.
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Hi, I’ m arriving here just today, from Italy. My name is Amleta. I hope you’ll be fine soon 😉🤗🤗🤗
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Thank you.
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But do they know the cause of your anemia? Oh, Ken, I hope this gets resolved and you get back to feeling all the way well! ❤️
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Thank you, Stephanie.
An endoscopy, a colonoscopy, a lower balloon enteroscopy, an upper balloon enteroscopy, and a capsule endoscopy — the final decision… the capsule study (swallowing a one-inch capsule camera) showed minor abrasion in my small intestine that could have minor blood seepage that wouldn’t necessarily be visible at the far end ( 😉 ), so I was referred to a hematologist who prescribed the iron infusion. Follow-up visits with him at 3, 9, and 12 months will determine if the infusion will need to be repeated. He said that our bodies have a great ability to retain iron, but a minor loss over several years takes its toll. The infusion addresses that, and some people who have an infusion go a year or less, and others may go up to 5 years.
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Wow! You’ve been through the ringer! I’m glad they kept testing until they got some kind of answer, though. I hope that “knowing” is a bit of a relief, and that you get to be on the 5-year plan! Take care, my friend!
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Few poems will touch me as yours has ….. be well, Ken.
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Thank you so much, Helen.
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Sorry to hear this, but immediately makes think of ‘Rust Never Sleeps’
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Thanks, Ron.
btw… I tried to write something about this for the seguidilla prompt at dVerse, but I couldn’t make it work. “My rust never sleeps” was one of my five-syllable lines. 🙂
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take care and stay safe . the poems on this prompt make me sad that i missed the live. would have loved to here this. have tried playing the recorded but cannot get it to play (my pc not wanting to play). get well soon.
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Thank you.
It was a nice open mic session.
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Sorry, this was the first time I had read about this. I hope you are doing, well given the circumstances. Sending blessings! Best wishes, and take care of yourself. Michael
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